Die not on the Inside, Free to Believe...

"Be Yourself, Everyone else is already taken" ~ Oscar Wilde

The best... very best thing you have to offer this world is YOU. This post goes out to all the people hiding under the blankets of someone's else belief systems because the world didn't make it safe for you to show us who you are.. From the bottom of my heart, I offer my sincerest apology that somehow you were sent the message that being anything less than your entire Self was what the world asked of you. Some people have no idea what I am writing about, and to you, I say.. YaY for you.. You are blessed, truly.

Unfortunately there are many who have been taught it was not okay to be you.. You who believes as you do.. you who feels as you do.. you who has many faces of time, space, and dimension... Yes, you. Whatever this life has brought you in circumstances that has contributed to this inhibition in living your life, your beliefs or creations to your fullest and highest expression of Love.. I am here to tell you.. You are Free.. Set yourSelf Free.. Right here, right now, I proclaim release of the chains that bind, hold you back, lock you up inside . If the world, your world can not handle the REAL you.. I promise you this, the Universe will provide you with the support you need to create anew.

If you have been under attack because someone is afraid of your differences from them, whatever those fears can be.. It is a very oppressive energy to spiritually combat. I call this spiritual warfare.. It no longer has to be a battle in anger, fights, verbal squabbles, you no longer have to be a master of avoiding your personal truth .. as much as it seems there is no other way.. there is. For you are always free in your heart, even if your body is imprisoned, no one is captive of your Soul, no one can take captive of your heart unless you give it to them. Your body may be bound, your mind may be heavy laden, your heart burdened, but ...your Soul is always free.

So when you are attacked because someone feels they are somehow protecting their beliefs by influencing yours.. know that although war may be waged against you, your Soul is free to soar.... And if you are LOVE, no matter how unloving, insensitive, or mis-aligned someone can be in trying to "help" by influencing your precious beliefs, ... if there is a way, in this life, your Creator will find a way for you to live what you love, even if the only way you are offered is in the confines of your Heart. The key is not to lose Heart, it is all too easy to let go in an attempt to be practical and safe. But if you suppress yourSelf.. you will find as you may have already found, you begin to die on the inside... Finding this your beautiful blossoms may have already suffered wilting.

The only truth I have ever found to be constant is LOVE. If the energy is not based in love.. differences matter not, in fact are beautiful, if we are focused on that Love...Living that love, why would we ever place our focus on what is different than what is similar? I sense we would be a lot closer to a unified world in peace if we placed our intention towards this end.

So how do I find freedom even though my life circumstances show me I am bound.. or expressing my personal truth causes unrest with the ones I love... How do I act free, live free when as soon as I do, something happens to show me that it is very unsafe to BE MYSELF?

Everyone has different circumstances. Because of this, there is no way to speak into all the possibilities which bind, and how to break free. What I can teach you is some skills which will help support you so you can empower yourself to find the place inside you to begin to feel what truly being free to be you fully feels like....

1. Breathe. Have you ever noticed when you feel shut down either by your own influence or someone else's, there is a pretty good chance you are holding your breath?mmmmmYes, you took the breath in, but did you let it out? Probably not. You most likely held on to it for way too long..and when you finally let it go, you probably let it out in a measly little way. If you want to begin to feel your Essence, feel your personal power and strength, the fastest, most efficient way is to begin breathing deeply, slowly, fully, in and out. You are going to take that in breath, we all do.. but how long does it take you to get around to letting it out, and when you do, how much breath do you actually let go of... This is so key.. Most of us don't come from a cultural background that understood the how vital breath is, not only for opening our energy channels, but for our body's own health. In fact, so true is this for so many of us, even reading the suggestion, most people want to run in the other direction. Breath is your energy fuel. It fuels your life force through your body, it reconnects you, grounds and centers you... Filled with this vitality, you will begin to untangle the webs that bound you in the first place.

2. Move, Shake, Dance. MOVE YOUR BODY. When we feel bound, our energy body creates layers of stagnant energy around our body that inhibit the beautiful essential breath to set you free. When you choose to BE YOURSELF.. that is ultimately the first step toward the intention of truly experiencing the freedom of what it feels like to live Free and BE YourSelf. Fueled with breath, you begin to feel lighter, and often, suddenly look lighter, heaviness leaves your face, bloat leaves your body, one the surest ways to lose weight, is to move your Qi. And you move your Qi with breath, and movement.. I teach a Island Body Harmonics class where our focus is first on breath and second on shaking, moving, ecstatic dancing, letting the body move without feeling inhibition..and you know what? People start to glow! One woman went from a size 20+ to a size 12, in just a few months. Everyone asked her how she lost so much weight.. and she said, "the only thing I have done different is Body Harmonics".. She had so many beliefs from her family she had herSelf all bound up in their expectations, their religious views, their mis-compassionate (misplaced compassion) ideas of how she needed to live her life, she got stuck, and the weight, stuck with her. When she began to breath and added movement, allowing her breath to move through all those "stuck" places, the layers she no longer needed, dropped. Another lady, coming for inner peace, lost 16lbs in the same time frame .. by not setting the goal just to let go of weight but rather to live their truth, loving themSelves... They let their dreams and beliefs become a living breathing energy that took on a life of its own, literally!

Last but not least...

Dream, visualize, meditate, pray. Seemingly different words, intricately linked, as they are rooted in connecting to the highest part of ourSelf in the Divine. Imagine the person you are on the deepest levels, in self love and empowerment, that you have been holding back from the world. No matter afraid you have been over the fall out of allowing your personal perception of what you belief to shine out to the world around you.. Now is the time to bring forward your best Self only you can first imagine yourSelf to be... Dream big and realize the greatness that you are.

Using the healing techniques of breath, movement and visualization, you will find a renewed sense of Self. No longer will anything or anyone that has instilled fear in your unique expression of the all encompassing you, hold you back. Believe in your Divine Right of Freedom.. Thrive on the Inside! The outside will show the miracles of you within...

From my heart to yours~

Ali

New Harvest Moon

The New Moon's void is upon us once again... A unique cycle which begs forgiveness.... the old hurts, sharper edges...impetuous reactions.. wish to find a new way. Yes, this is what the stars and planets set the stage in our experiences to align to.. Feelings brewing like a cauldron of healing herbs...like a soulful soup that will warm even those hardened places in our hearts where we have forgotten that love's waters dried and we don't even remember why...

But this is your time.. your time... to allow the mishaps, mis-communications, mis-placed compassions, misunderstandings to gently seep up to the surface.. for the time of healing griefs and pains which were not given the freedom to express themselves in the highest vibration are seeping up from their dark cob webbed corners, pouring out from their over stuffed trunks, and seeking to be transmuted into use-able energy again.. Those unhealed parts that are outmoded and no longer useful will begin to stir and churn.. inviting you to find a new way... a better way... a peaceful way....

The thing is.. the most fantastic beautiful thing is.. healing past is not contingent on reliving the hurt, hashing up the old for review so your ego and intellect can decide if there is worth or value in letting it go... See.. the value is in allowing it go regardless if one has earned your forgiveness.. whether or not the hurts are mended, or if you have earned your own forgiveness.. whether or not you understand it... it does not require your analyzing or your ego's imput... but it does require one thing... It requires your Surrender... Yes... We are talking Free Will...

When working with clients on release... I have seen so many miracles over this one small realization. You do not have to be ready.. but you must be willing.

LET IT GO.. give it back to your Creator in a simple, heart felt way.. Be willing to admit that you do not know how to heal these pains/hurts.. that you may not know how to be ready...but are willing to be MADE ready.. which happens through your Surrender. The amazing thing about letting go.. giving this back to the Essence that will heal you, brings in the mirror reflections to give your experiences to match this healing through your joy now into of through pain.. Yes, you will have new experiences that will show you that you do not have to hurt to heal this.. you do not have to have your greatest fears presented to you so you can prove yourself now strong enough to face it better this time.. The lovely part is that it is no longer about conquering it, it is about being presented with better options that reflect a kinder, gentler scenario... with the qualities that are smoother and softer within you and in the people who you will be working through these healing issues with..

Does this mean, I think in the next month all your deepest shadows will be arising for healing awareness to blow them out of your energy field? Smiles, NO.. It does mean that this New Moon reflects a surge of support for the healing to begin.. And just as the moon waxes and wanes, tides rise and fall, so do our own cycles of healing. So tonight marks a beginning on whatever level your mind, body and spirit are ready for to initiate and welcome a new cycle of healing for you..

Remember to Surrender into its possibilities by offering the helm of your life journey back to your Creator.. and you will begin not only a cycle of healing but of many new beginnings.. These new beginnings flourish as you continue to let go the the reigns .. Life will flow, and you will feel the peace of stepping into the support of the Cosmic highway...

So let the unraveling begin..

Namaste~ Aloha~ Oceans of Love

Eyes of Time

There is nothing you have missed. Everything that is yours comes to you... your great LOVE awakened Soulfire that burns within you knows its counterpart.. Know this as real.. has always been real and remains So.

Wait not for what you think you may have lost, lingering in but a memory... All that is yours is forever yours.. It has left you not.. it remains part of you.. not all of you..a mere building block...pieces layered upon pieces, mirror reflection begging for healing.... aspects of the whole of which you are in your entirety.. shadows and light filters through timeless distortions, laden baggage, in need of understanding, refining, forgiving, a smoothing of layers..light lifts out of shadow like cream separates away from the milk and floats to the top.. so your light aspects seek your own rising, lifting out of the heavy burial clothing of your dimmer realities and into the light gossamer veils readying itself for lifting in sacred chamber of your Heart...

For you are a masterpiece delicately entwined with the Other.. layers of your past, falls away~ that which you have wished to be All could never fulfill, for parts can only remain parts, matched in fracture.. what is like unto the Other is known upon its arrival.. without hopeless desire, it simply is.. .. only an empty dream of loss has such expectations, for missed opportunities and misplaced longing.. what is All of you has always been and always will be...it simply IS... Be not stuck in the shadows of what you have wished for.. time has not alluded you.. you have not missed anything.. Be in your now.. Forever you have longed and wished.. over forgotten dreams, missed opportunities, unrequited love, misunderstood, and unrecognized you have waited to be seen.

Now you see you have been but asleep, under layers of time.

Gently the awakened presence of your Soulfire seeps through the windows of time.. Your eternal flame can not be squelched or smothered by your mis-alignments and fractures.. As a temple fire, it is fanned and fueled by your Oversoul... Patiently, your Essence finds you through the channels of Time... gently reweaving your tapestry, repairing your distorted threads and healing your fractures..

Forget not you are a budding blossom in the winds of time.. Your petals stretch out far beyond where your mind seeks arrival... but into the far reaches of imaginings wild and beyond your every desire..

Know that your roots sink deep into a fertile earth pulling you inward... your trunk stretches outward to the great sky beyond.. your branches reach in yearning hunger for the light that begs pour its liquid nectar sinewing sensually down through channels that thirst to be drenched greedily with its light...

You stand solemn, sturdy and strong through the portals of time. Your Essence, limitless unbounded by time and space, complete, unified, One beloved.. One heart, One Soulfire eternal are you...Embrace passion filled, the kundal heart that burns the forever eternal Flame of Union....

Molten Grace

Shrouded are we in layers of experience... veils upon veils... layer upon layers ever so delicately that they have long become so intricately entwined with our ego-ic Self we know not they exist... only that we have become so accustomed to their presence that the god or goddess Self is but a dim memory.

Today in teaching my indoor cycling class I realized that when we reach deep in physical motion... and I mean really deep, something that pushes us to our very limit.. these layers become molten.. When glass is heated, it transforms into the most lovely liquid light. Only to harden again in its fixed form. When we exert our bodies to an extreme, layers peel within us.

At first, it is simply exhausting, but as the physical self integrates the demands being placed upon it.. a resolve sets in. The body gives into the task at hand, and for a time, spiritually it becomes MOLTEN.

I have felt anger and hurt arise in my body when I reach so deep into myself through physical exercise that I feel as if I am melting. In teaching class, especially indoor cycling, I can feel my hardened Self shift as these layers melt away revealing feelings long stored. I see these same changes happen in my students... Often I say, "you are melting" ..and yes, I mean melting fat or melting toxins through sweat.. but I explain that its so much more than this--as I feel frustration build in their bodies or facial expressions...

You see... anger, hurt, frustration, anxiety, low-self esteem are all very real emotions that seem to surface in a simple indoor cycling class. Sometimes I will smile at a student because intuitively I can feel them cussing at me. And later when I ask them, they will affirm that indeed four letter words were running rampant through their head... I smile as I write, yes, at me.. but how great is this? How wonderful that 15minutes of intense exercise can conjure up layers of emotion not easily reached from such a neutral environment.

It is in this place, I discovered how transformative intense physical exertion is for reaching layers of emotion in us that we may not even consciously know are there.

I call this Molten Grace. Where I heat up my body with intense exercise or breath work so extreme, it pushes me through layers of emotional bondage. What lay beneath? GRACE. The most sensual, self assured feminine essence who knows exactly, intimately the powerful being she is...

I question mySelf.. what else is there to pursue except Grace? For in this grace, our Soul love flows through...